Last night I stayed up till 11:00 with no anxiety! And I actually felt truly happy yesterday and today. It feels so good. I don’t know whether it will last, but I’m thankful for a bit of a reprieve. I only slept 8.5 hours (when I’ve been sleeping 10-12).
I think part of it is that Saturday I switched to taking my meds in the morning. I think they’ve been wearing off by evening and that’s why they weren’t covering the anxiety. And I’m definitely feeling positive effects from the Lamictal/lamotrigine now. I’m going to ask my pdoc if we can add 100mg in the evening so that it covers the bit of anxiety I’ve been getting in the morning (due to meds wearing off I think), so well see what she thinks.
I’ve also been more open about my bipolar, which has made me feel good. I’ve told my family and some friends. It’s helpful to be able to talk about it.
I’m just nervous and hopeful that I’ll feel good again tonight and that it lasts throughout the week.